I know you're reading, guys

And I'm thankful for that. I'm sorry I haven't had anything that interesting to say in a while. Truth is, I'm so overwhelmed by emotions these days, it's hard to fit them here in this space. I'm filled with love I have for so many people in my life right now. I am filled with sorrow and regret for the way that my friendship with Jessamyn has changed and the way I cut off from Ben. I am nervous everyday for the unexpected, but so excited at the same time. I'm scared for some people, happy for others. For myself, I'm okay. I sense that my days here may be longer than I thought. I think I've found a place in my mind inbetween the rage and love. There lies my serenity. I'm working on a book, but doing a poor job of it. I'm about to attend a three-day education program on helping myself... I wonder if it'll prove me wrong and actually benefit me. I'm lying in my bed listening to music and typing, feeling no urge whatsoever to mutilate myself. I like who I am. Funny, because I had a breakthrough the other night while I was rather intoxicated. I realized that I am awesome, I just have to remember to be it. I can't let apathy dominate my personality. I'm better than that.

Here's to... the journey.
And last night driving through the storm, I found something to believe in.