Snippets of my life.

I like to get personal on my blog, but for some reason sharing my happy feelings scares me. I'm afraid it'll ruin the magic.
Perhaps it's because I'm a lunatic. I'm a nonsensical person watching unnecessary censorship youtube videos and feeling somehow inspired by them.
Perhaps it's because everytime I praise anything great about my life it ends up going sour and for once I don't want to fuck it up.
Perhaps it's because the one time I have a clean break with good feelings it turns out to be one huge lie.


And the stars collide
I feel something inside
The music starts to play
And you take me away
If you somehow knew
I am in love with you
Then maybe you could stay
Is there another way?


And we say goodbye
I'm trying not to cry
You say we'll keep in touch
Because you care too much
Now it's time to go
But I want you to know
I'll be waiting for you
Because I love you too


It's crazy to feel like this. It's crazy to believe in someone else so much, and that they make me believe in myself even more. It's crazy to forget everything else. It's crazy to sound like an obsessed freak just because of a few chemical reactions. It's crazy that he's this wonderful. It's crazy that I'm allowing myself to be this exposed and vulnerable to an unknown audience that may or may not consist of those who broke my heart and those who fixed it.