Sometimes.

Sometimes I dream I’m flying
Not even the wind can catch me
And that’s when I’m free
In a place all my own
Lost in weightlessness and fantasy
I wake up afraid and alone
And though the solitude is the same
Here it is a cold, empty cage
Discouraging my sense of self
And I’d love to blame my thoughts
However I know this panic is not from my rage
Rather, from the helpless soul
Scared one night, needing one to hold
But someone went too far, someone destroyed that innocence
And over and over again…
There were new someones.
Sometimes I dream I’m dying
Not even my love can save me
And that’s when I’m free
In a place all my own
Lost in conclusion and fantasy
I wake up afraid and alone
And though the solitude is the same
Here it is a cold, empty cage
Discouraging my hate and doubt
And I’d love to blame my faith
However I know hope is not keeping me awake
Rather, from the helpless soul
With too much fear to let go
But someone went too far, someone destroyed uncertainty
And over and over again…
There were new someones.
Sometimes I do not dream
I’m awake, afraid and alone
This solitude I cannot bear
In an iron-barred cage all my own
Stifling room to grow
And I’d love to blame this sullen place
However I know that is not what is haunting me
Rather, the helpless soul
That has no where else to go
But someone went too far, someone made me believe
And over and over again…
There were new someones.
Sometimes, there are no more words.